Finis

Everything at your fingertips. You plan the scenes, you write the script, you direct the movie. You're the godfather, you call all the shots, you create characters you wish existed, you eliminate those who threaten to bring your empire down. In the process you leave a trail of blazing destruction without having to worry that what you've destroyed will ever live to take its revenge.

I've decided to brand this as a chapter. So one day i'll look back, remember why I chose to move forward, to see better days. I should roughly fill in the details. Just so you know i'm blogging about my experiences not to express any source of enmity towards any of the parties. I just felt that its a valuable experience to share.

If you've been an avid reader and follower you would've know I stopped dating Sean last year in November. I started dating Lenard soon after and things were like how every relationship begins, smooth sailing. Everyone calls it the honey moon period. Everything was going pretty great till the lying began. Within a short period of time it escalated to cheating and the other party and I were having a rough time trying to figure out whether Len was being true. I thought I knew him for the person he was having spent months with him in Perth. The side that I knew plunged down from the surface the moment he returned to Singapore.

Within the entire duration, I tried my best to be as understanding as I could. Trying to empathise with his actions. His actions were repetitive and everytime the truth floated to the surface, he would apologise. Apologises don't matter as much to me unlike before because lately with everyone, it has lost its significance being overly poorly imposed time and time again. He would not express the details of his actions so I assumed they were alike the previous times. Just about yesterday I managed to glean answers I was probably never meant to know. I thank the other party for having been so honest with me. For filling the void I never saw. Though Len told me I was never the third party, from where I stand it does seem very much so. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have been kept in the dark. I don't need my questions to be answered. In fact, I believe I already have all the answers, placed in my hands.

I'm not mad, neither am I upset. I find it no picnic to sit and dwell at where I stand. I believe that this can be added to my book of experiences which will help me to grow as an individual. And to anyone who is going through a situation similar to this, look and pluck up the courage to be steadfast and move forward. Again, I stress on honesty. Maybe i'm old fashioned or maybe i'm just extremely particular about the regulations of being truthful. But one thing's for sure, no one likes being lied to.

So to Len, if you ever are reading this. I know you'll live from the guilt. But I hope you will take this as a lesson where you realise that all our actions have consequences. I tried my best to be as understanding as I could and for you to just take full advantage of that portrays how immature and shallow your thoughts are. You may be 25, but you certainly don't act your age. Not having the courage expresses how much of a coward you are. How you're afraid to face the course of your actions. I honestly thought you were better than that. However, I wish you well.

I thank the people who have always been supportive of me in my time of need. And to the nosey ones who have been giving me a hard time, I hope you will come to realise that everyone is not who they make themselves out to be. That there are two sides or maybe three to every story so please find the good in yourselves to seek the truth before you decide to oppress anyone. I do not appreciate you pressing yourselves against my problems. If you truly do care for each and every one of us like you make yourselves to be, you would try and comprehend that we're old enough to handle situations like these on our own.

Thank you.

Yours Sincerely,
D.